Ask God, He Answers

Again I’m posting this a few days after the revelation because I too need time to process this.

I’m pretty good today. Haven’t been as emotional in the last 24 hrs. But still my mind can be diverted so easily.  This probably wouldn’t be so easy if I could just get some sleep over this – over Africa.  I woke up the other night (it was 1:45 AM) and thought “I can’t go to Africa, I don’t have a passport.”  I thought they were still on a 6 month wait, but found out today that it will take about 8 weeks.  It’s those kinds of things that just cause me to open my eyes at night and then my mind is going.

God already answered the questions I had last week.

So this week I asked Him – God do you really want me to go to Africa? And He said – “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.”  Mark 16:15

I said, “But God there is so much to do and I am not a carpenter to build beds. What should you have me do there?” – and God said, “I just want you to love. The command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, you must love one another.  By this, all men will know you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:34-35

Then I got down to the nitty gritty and I said, “God, I believe you have things to be done in Africa, but honestly you know where I am hung up. So should I really go ahead and sign up to go? Or should I wait until I have some money for a deposit and then sign up?” And God said, “Faith without action is dead.” James2:17

So last night online I filled out the application through the church.  Tonight I hope to get the one done through Sweet Sleep.

I filled out the application and of course there is a deposit.  There is a little confusion over how much because more than one agency is involved.  But God is NOT the author of fear and confusion.  And with even a tad of confusion – BAM!!!!  Satan has my thoughts occupied again with that.”  But I have to stop myself quickly to say – first off they (Sweet Sleep) are not asking for the money today or even tomorrow.

It is a real battle back and forth in my mind like this.  I’m starting to feel a little spiritually spastic. So many times, my mind knows the answer, I guess that is where my faith has to back it up.