Ask God, He Answers
Again I’m posting this a few days after the revelation because I too need time to process this.
Iâ€™m pretty good today. Havenâ€™t been as emotional in the last 24 hrs. But still my mind can be diverted so easily.Â This probably wouldnâ€™t be so easy if I could just get some sleep over this – over Africa.Â I woke up the other night (it was 1:45 AM) and thought â€œI canâ€™t go to Africa, I donâ€™t have a passport.â€Â I thought they were still on a 6 month wait, but found out today that it will take about 8 weeks.Â Itâ€™s those kinds of things that just cause me to open my eyes at night and then my mind is going.
God already answered the questions I had last week.
So this week I asked Him â€“ God do you really want me to go to Africa? And He said â€“ â€œGo into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.â€Â Mark 16:15
I said, â€œBut God there is so much to do and I am not a carpenter to build beds. What should you have me do there?â€ â€“ and God said, â€œI just want you to love. The command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, you must love one another.Â By this, all men will know you are my disciples, if you love one another.â€ John 13:34-35
Then I got down to the nitty gritty and I said, â€œGod, I believe you have things to be done in Africa, but honestly you know where I am hung up. So should I really go ahead and sign up to go? Or should I wait until I have some money for a deposit and then sign up?â€ And God said, â€œFaith without action is dead.â€ James2:17
So last night online I filled out the application through the church.Â Tonight I hope to get the one done through Sweet Sleep.
I filled out the application and of course there is a deposit. Â There is a little confusion over how much because more than one agency is involved. Â But God is NOT the author of fear and confusion. Â And with even a tad of confusion â€“ BAM!!!!Â Satan has my thoughts occupied again with that.â€Â But I have to stop myself quickly to say â€“ first off they (Sweet Sleep) are not asking for the money today or even tomorrow.
It is a real battle back and forth in my mind like this.Â Iâ€™m starting to feel a little spiritually spastic. So many times, my mind knows the answer, I guess that is where my faith has to back it up.