God Is the Coolest Guy I Know
I can remember (at a younger age) being in a restaraunt with girlfriends, and when one had to go to the bathroom, we all went. Â I don’t why. Â I don’t think any girl knows why, we just do it. Â However with maturity that fades, thankgoodness. :-)
I am so grateful for this Bible study group that I am in. Â They and our study challenges me to constantly check my walk with the Savior. Â Sometimes I don’t like what I see. Â God’s bringing me to the point of submission to go to Africa has been an emotional journey for me. Â I had a fear in the beginning of this journey. One of my girlfriends challenged me to put a name on the fear that I was having and confess it to the Lord. Â So I have tried to identify it. Â I was afraid of going alone on this trip. Â Yes, it’s true, me, who will stop and talk to complete strangers is afraid to go alone. Â Usually I’m in a familiar or safe surroundings when I do talk to complete strangers.
I know I will not be alone, I will be with a group of people. Â I wanted so bad to email the leader and say who is going on this trip. Â I kinda felt like the young girl who wanted my friends to go to the bathroom with me. Â Why couldn’t my husband be going with me. Â OR Ok, ok if not a group of friends, I’ll take just one. Â Right now the only one I know on this trip, is the Lord. Â God, please help my faith! Â God sweetly whispered, “Some trusts in chariots (relationships), some in horses (friends), but you trust in the name of the Lord.” Â (Ok friends, please don’t be offended that the word “friends” is in the place of Â “horses”. :0 Â )
I think, “Ok, I will trust you, Lord, but sometimes it’s hard.” I haven’t exactly found a scripture for this one, but I know I heard God say, “yes, it is, now quit whining and let’s move on, we have more to do.” Â :-)
When my husband got to go to Thailand a couple of years ago, tons of our friends went. Â He not only got to serve but he had a wonderful time. Â Sounds like I’m jealous doesn’t it. Â I’m not, I was really glad that he got to go. Â And I can’t compare what he experienced to what God has in store for me. Â This is a different time, a different trip, and a different set of circumstances. Â Oswald Chambers wrote, “Never make a principle out of your experiences; let God be as original with other people as He is with you.” Â Francis Chan added, “Be careful not to turn others’ lives into the mold for your own.”
I can’t go on anyone else’s experience. Â I have to go on my own alone, well, not alone with God alone. Â So I learning to trust God on a new level and give Him my fear of going alone. Â So I submitted, ” I will go with you Lord.”
The day after I shared with my LifeGroup that I felt God wanted me to go, I got an email from a sweet friend in the group saying that she was feeling the same thing. Â I got an email from her today that she is definitely going. After I emailed many of you to ask for prayers, I got an email from another dear friend asking questions about Africa and said that it has been on her heart.
OH MY GOODNESS! God is just the coolest guy I know. Â And look at how he loves me. Â I am overwhelmed. I want so bad to grab each of you and make you understand how much God love you, loves me, loves us. Â But you will have to learn this on your own. Â I know that I have only begun to grasp the tip of His love. Â “Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.” Â (Ps. 40:5)
The peace I had from just submitting to go, with still a little Â trembling, is not something I could describe. Â But I know that I want to know that peace for trusting him more and more each day. I want to thirst for God.
A quote from the last chap of Crazy Love, by Francis Chan. “”.. Anne Dillard once said, “How we live our days is … how we live our lives.” Â We each need to discover for oursleves how to live this day in faithful surrender to God as we “continue to work out (our) salvation with fear and trembling” (Phil. 2:12).”
God really is the coolest guy I know.