It was a Sunday like any Sunday. After working the baby room , I picked up my kids and went to worship. I was feeling pretty good about the fact that I was serving and had not missed a Sunday since we had been in our new building (all by a schedule that I picked). Â Ok, let’s just call it like it is, I was prideful. Â Proverbs says, “Pride goeth before the fall.” Well listen for the splat because it didn’t take long.
Worship went off without a hitch, the music was great. Â Then came the prayer and altar time. Â A lady came and knelt down front. Â I think she was crying but it wasn’t very noticeable. Â Yes, my eyes were open and regardless of the motive of my eyes being open, God decided to make use of the moment. Â So he whispered, “Go pray with her.” Â So I thought I would close my eyes and pray about whether or not I should go pray with her. Â I know – stupid right? Well, I finally quit arguing with myself and with God and decided yes, I would go pray with her. Â So I opened my eyes to go pray with her and my good friend was already kneeling beside her praying. Â SPLAT!
The lesson for me that day was that God doesn’t need me at all to do his work. Â It is a privilege to be His child and to do His work. It wasn’t really that long of an argument with myself about whether or not to go – but I hesitated and God did not. Â He had something to accomplish and the moment was right then. Â The woman wasn’t going to stay at the altar all morning and pray.
When God said “Go to Africa.” Â I said ok. Â But I didn’t realize until that Sunday how much He does not NEED me to go to Africa. Â His Will will be accomplished with or without me. There are many other lessons to be learned through this trip, but I pray that my hesitation to obedience won’t be one them. Â I want to see the moment, the need – the urgency. Â I want to be obedient. Â However, obedience takes practice. Â Practice listening to the Holy Spirit – even in the little things.
The Bible says “in our weakness, He is strong.” Â I will depend on His strength to help me be obedient because I really don’t like the sound of SPLAT!